Last night sleeping at home…

I’m lying here in my jammies, and I am looking around my room at all of my cool posters, action figures and nerd regalia and feeling a bit sad that I will be leaving it all behind while I embark on this journey across the pond to go and chase after my dream. I’ll have to find a way to “nerd up” my room in the residence hall, for sure… to make it feel a bit like home, I guess. It won’t be the same, but sometimes one has to make sacrifices for the greater good.

Those things, however special they are to me, are nothing compared to the giant emptiness I will feel whenever I have to hug my Dad goodbye bright and early tomorrow morning. This will be the longest span of time that I have ever been away from him. I won’t be able to come home for holidays because I simply cannot afford it. I’m not due to come home again for a visit until next summer (end of June.) I’ll miss his birthday, Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Easter, and my birthday as well. Even though he and I have discussed this all SO much, and we both know that I have to do it… this opportunity is a once in a lifetime thing… it still isn’t easy – for either of us. But, I am ever so thankful for technology… because we will be using the heck out of Skype and Email! Dad doesn’t really email, but he has an iPad and can read the ones I send to him, so I can do that whenever we can’t Skype for some reason. His phone doesn’t do international calling, so I got him a phone card… but I think you need to be a rocket scientist to figure out how to use them. There are SO many numbers to “plug in” just to make your call. (sigh) I told him we would reserve that for special occasions or emergencies maybe. Heck, maybe Skype will be enough. I hope so.

My awesome cousin Troy and his youngest son Drake came over today and helped us out by putting up a new mailbox for Dad that’s closer to the house. We FINALLY got permission from the postmaster… took us until yesterday to get the approval, but we finally did. We got the new box up today and it looks great and will be SO much safer and easier for Dad to get his mail now. Whew! One less thing I have to worry about.

As I am kicked back here in the bed, I am not the least bit sleepy (of course) though I feel like I need to get SOME rest because I have to get up at 5:00 am. I leave the house around 6:15 and then the shuttle leaves Chattanooga at 7:00 bound for the Atlanta airport. I will have almost 24 hours of travel time! I fly to Boston first, then have a few hours layover before I fly out tomorrow night for London (overnight flight.) I will get to London about 2:00 am our time (7:00 am their time.) Wow! That’s a loooooong day. LOL! First thing I want to do after I get to the hotel and get all settled? Change clothes and go for a nice walk up Primrose Hill!!! I can’t wait!!! I have been away for too long. I love Primrose Hill and can’t wait to get back to it! <3

So… I guess I will just have to make my peace with feeling conflicted for tonight. I am SO excited about things to come, but I am also SO sad about what I am leaving behind. Lots of prayers, good thoughts, etc… from all who read this would be greatly appreciated! Thanks, everyone!